By Amanpreet Kaur
I am Amanpreet Kaur, a 22 year old girl born in Ludhiana, Punjab. When I
was 19, studying BCA, I fell in love with a Hindu boy named Sameer. We
would talk for hours and it was clear that he loved me back. We would
always talk about living a happy life together but never really
discussed religion.
Religion is a big part of life in India.
Indians are very religious people. My family was religious but they
hardly told me anything about Sikhism. Everything I learned about
Sikhism was from the school in which I studied ‘till twelfth grade. I
knew about Guru Nanak Dev Ji and his teachings and that Sikhs are to
worship one God only. I knew a little bit of the history, Sikhs fighting
with Muslim emperor Aurengzeb to save Hindus. But little did I knew
about differences between Sikhism and Hinduism. All I knew was Sikhs do
not believe in caste system and do not worship Hindu Gods like Brahma,
Krishan, Ganesh, Durga, Kali etc, as mukti (salvation) can only be
attained through the meditation on One God, who is above all.
Sameer told me that I do not have to convert to Hinduism in order to
marry him. He told me that I can still practice Sikhism if I wanted to.
Marrying a Hindu didn’t seem a big of deal to me but my parents told me
that I should marry someone with the similar belief system, a Sikh.
There arose a huge fight in our family but blinded by love I insisted to
marry Sameer only.
Anyway, we got married. Our marriage was
conduct according to Hindu marriage ceremony. Everything was going well
for the first couple of weeks until his parents started forcing me to do
Durga Puja (worship). I resisted but they said it is the practice of
their family and I have to do it. I told Sameer and found him
surprisingly in agreement with his parents. He said I can perform Sikh
practices but being in their family I have to do Durga Puja. The
conflict started arising not only because of Durga Puja but also due to
daily Hindu rituals. For example always referring to Hindu Gods while
talking, fasting for certain periods, considering fire as sacred, and
much more.
They kept forcing me and taunting me and I started
performing Durga Puja. I felt very awkward worshipping the stone statue
of Durga. One day I decided to search the online version of Guru Granth
Sahib about what my Guru says about performing other worships. I found
out that Guru Ji condemns the worship of anyone else except God.
As
I read more and more of Guru Granth Sahib and some of the articles
written by Sikhs, my eyes lit and I was amazed that my Guru offers such
beautiful and true teaching. I felt embarrassed for not knowing it until
now. Everything a girl could ever imagine is in Sikhism. Guru ji gave
women equal status as of men, equal rights and self-respect. My Guru
made me a princess by giving me the last name, Kaur. I felt really
ashamed and embarrassed having betrayed my Guru The next morning I told
Sameer that I will no longer perform Durga Puja. When my mother-in-law
heard this from Sameer, she became furious and started cursing me. And
started telling Sameer that he should leave me. That morning I did not
perform Durga Puja. One day Sameer came home and told me to get ready. I
asked him the reason and he said it is a surprise. I had no idea where
he was taking me until he took me to a mandir (Hindu Temple). He had
tricked me to go to the mandir to do Durga Puja. I refused to get out of
the car. He kept trying and even tried to drag me. Watching my
resistance, he became furious and drove back home. He did not say a word
and when we went in our room he slapped me. The slap was so
unexpected and hard that I fell on the ground. I started crying and he
started yelling. I wept for the whole night. Slowly our marriage grew
apart and we got divorced. I still regret my decision of getting married
to Sameer. Sometimes our emotions make us blind and all we want to see
is what suits our eyes and we ignore everything else, unaware of what we
ignored will come back to haunt us.
My advice to all Sikh girls is to
marry a Sikh so that there would be no room for religious conflicts.
